I used to be a planner, also super-organized (and this is the part where my husband would insist otherwise and I would end any possibility of a long, drawn out debate, by insisting back "WAS SO!" Because I am a great debater, like that!), but those days seem so long ago.
In our house, the holidays were my Olympics! I researched recipes, collected odds and ends for binge-crafting sessions with the kids and made lists for ALL things holi"daze".
This year? I'm lucky if I remember to wear matching earrings, and leaving the house with shoes on, and I can't tell you how many times I've caught myself wondering if I had remembered to use shampoo after already having gotten out of the shower.
My mommybrain is all grown up and waiting for someone to strain my carrots, dammit.
Now with Dad in and out of hospitals and rehab centers, since the end of August, I can't seem to think past remembering to eat lunch. Our parents play a large part of our celebrations and, now that our kids are getting older, (us too!) I keep reminding myself that every day we spend together is a gift.
"What's gonna happen on Thanksgiving?"
Thanksgiving has ALWAYS been my son's favorite holiday and now that he's turning 17 (ugh, really?!?) and has the appetite of a 17yo (a.k.a. never NOT hungry) he's taken over the menu-planning :)
"I haven't even thought about it, so don't know what we're doing, Bud!"
Truth be told, I'm still trying to figure out where September went.
"Well, if Papa is still in the hospital, we'll just have to bring Thanksgiving to him, that's all!"
[one beat, two beats]
"I mean, it doesn't matter where we have it, or if we cop a squat in the corner and eat off of trays, as long as we are together, right?!?"
I'm still trying to clear the massive goober that has formed in my throat, so I have yet to get back to him on that one, but I think maybe he already knows the answer and it was more of a rhetorical question, because these kids are way smarter than me.
"Wait, is that Christmas music you're playing?"
My oldest daughter, on the other hand...
"YUP! Don't judge!"
Gahdfuhbid, it's like she doesn't EVEN know me!!!!